I have been so bad about sketching lately and it feels like I have created so many excuses to avoid giving myself the chance to take a step back and carve out time to appreciate the every day in pictures. I have, however, been capturing the world using an alternative medium – through the lens. But somehow, this does not feel the same as actually sitting down and noticing every hue, contour, texture of the subject being studied. So, in a way, I’m cheating myself out of the experience.
Nobody has told me that being a work at home mum is ever easy. I do keep telling myself to get off the keyboard and pick up the brush to switch off and unwind. But not only have teaching and marking work been occupying my time, there are also the dirty dishes on the sink and the pile of laundry to wash and fold.
And whatever little time I have left over, it’s either preparing food or going out to have some coffee to unwind. And these caffeine seshes usually involve chatting with the hubby about anything and everything, so this usually demands my undivided attention and not my eyes working away at the curvature of the leaves in the potted plant in front of us. Besides, we always go to the same supermarket cafe after finishing the grocery shopping anyway, so there’s not much point in me sketching away the same the pillar, the same cashier, or the same coffee I usually have, served in the same cup.
I am usually quite good at organising my time and try to list my to-dos in the old-fashioned way, on top of the phone apps that I have, to try and manage my tasks. But if you’re disorganised, you’re disorganised – no fancy-looking app or an attractive to-do note book is going to help me move my day forward!
So, no more excuses from now on. If I can be consistent with my work and personal commitments, there is no reason why I should shy from the one activity that helps relaxes me and one which I enjoy.
Send me words of encouragement if you can 🙂